In my dreams

Yes, I have arrived at the place that I believe I would trade my left arm to be able to sleep-- one entire day. I find myself, at many times throughout my day, admiring my bed, rubbing my pillow with my hand, and imagining how nice it would be to just climb in, snuggle up, and drift away. Imagine one whole day though, with NO alarm clocks, no checking the time and having to dread getting up, No interruptions, no crying, no loud thumps of someone falling out of the bed, no--"I need a drink of water please!", no--"I need to go pee" (for the 4th time)--NOTHING. Just one day of uninterrupted sleep would be more than I could dream of.

I remember the last time I felt like this, that I was just too tired to take anymore, Hannah came down with her second round of Pneumonia and this time I had to stay in the hospital with just her (the first time I had Nora in there with me too) and all Hannah wanted was for me to hold her. Yes there were times when it was miserable because she felt so miserable and it is hard to see your baby hurting that way, BUT all I could do was lay there--my food was delivered to the bed, I had a pile of books, tv, music, and my baby girl. What an answer to prayer that time was...no cooking, no cleaning, no working--just laying there cuddling--there is no mistaking that it was God. Well, that was about 2 years ago...I am back at that place again. I would hate to have one of my kids get sick again, but I would LOVE to have that time off.